Tue, 17 Aug 2004 13:14:17 GMT

summer is slowly ending, and i'm seeing how much i've changed. i see how many friendships have changed, freiends that were lost, and friends i gained. people putting new experiences in my life. showing me all kinds of things. i wish i could say i regret it, but than i realize that my summer wouldn't have been the same without these new people in my life, which i love. i miss how things used to be, i miss us all hanging out without the fights. but oh well, people grow apart, change. nothing lasts forever. it would be amazing to have one of those nights back, but i think we all know it just isn't going to work. i miss the late night phone calls until 2:30 in the morning, i miss you guys being the only ones to make me smile. but i'm not going to change myself just to be excepted. i want no more drama. i wish it would all just disappear. i wish i could mend a lot of friendships, some of them i don't though. i am happy with the people in my life. becuase they are amazing. i mean who knew i could have more fun than i've had in awhile just driving around in mikey b's car with boo not even knowing where i was going? i don't know. i'm just real content with the people i hang out with, i'm more comfortable around them. i just wish i knew why a lot of my friendships just died.

i just want this to end.

bellezatragica